An apology letter from me to you

• The sequel to this fanfic “”
• Diluc x f! reader
• ~2k words
• Angst to fluff
• Warnings: reader accused of cheating, mentions of anxiety, reader crying, using of pet names(“my love”), implied abandonment issues at some point (I think that’s all)
• A/N: it is a bit rushed imo but I think i wrote what I wanted to say
• More under the cut :)

Diluc forgot how lonely the bed felt without you on it. He got so used to sleeping next to you every night, without even realizing. But as usually, people start appreciating something right when they lose it. He hopes he didn’t lose you just yet. The pyro user regrets the harsh words he threw at you earlier, and is determined to fix everything as soon as possible.

The mattress shifted as you finally came into bed in yours and Diluc’s shared bedroom. Diluc was now at ease, he didn’t know the time, but he guessed it was around 3 am.

He didn’t go after you when you went out earlier, but that does not mean he wasn’t worried about you and your safety. Now that you’re near him, he can rest.

…

Diluc was woken up by a ray of sunshine that passed through the thick curtains of the room. He wanted to reach you and press a little kiss on your forhead, a thing he got used to doing since you two started living together. But…you weren’t on your side of the bed.

Usually, Diluc’s day starts at around 5am, when the sun has yet to come out completly, a time when you would be normaly sound asleep next to him, but considering that you weren’t, it means he must have overslept.

As he stepped out the room, he met Adelinde in the hallway.

“Oh! Good morning, or perhaps it would be more fitting to say good afternoon, Master Diluc! ” greeted happily the head maid. “Should I make you some breakfast or do you want to eat lunch? The cook just finished making today’s lunch.”

“Good…afternoon, Adelinde, can you tell me what time is it? ” Diluc asked.

’Afternoon? Lunch? Just how long did I sleep?’ Diluc wondered.

“ I think it’s 1 PM. Why? Did the maids have to wake you up and they didn’t? Miss [name] said that-”

“What?” Diluc was,suddenly, feeling more awake as he heard his lover’s name in that moment. “What about [name]?

"Well… Miss [name] said that we should let you sleep, because you worked a lot these days and you are tired. If I remember well, she said that while she was eating breakfast a few hours ago.”

’She ate breakfast at home? That doesn’t happen very often. Usually, she would take her breakfast and pack it, to eat it later at work. Unless…she took today off.’

“I’m not hungry. I will eat later.” Diluc said as he began rushing back to the bedroom. Before entering the room, Diluc asked Adelinde where you were.

“Miss [name] left the winery an hour ago, after she watered the vines from the front yard. We told her that she didn’t need to, but she insisted on helping us. ” Adelinde said as she watched Diluc stop in his tracks with his hand on the door’s handle. He stopped paying attention after the first 8 words she has spoken.

His heart stopped beating for a second.

“What did you say, Adelinde?” asked the redhead, without turning to face her, almost breaking the door’s handle at how much pressure he was applying to it.

“She watered the vines?”

“No, not this, the first part.” Diluc was feeling very anxious.

“Miss [name] told us she wanted to go buy some books from With Wind Comes Glory¹. She assured us that she would be back by dinner, but I personally think it will takea bit longer since she went by foot. But, Master Diluc, is there something wrong? You seem stressed. ” the head maid asked with concern.

“I’m fine, Adelinde. I just remembered there was something urgent that I have to do today.” Diluc quickly replied.

After hearing the explanation, Diluc instantly relaxed. For a moment, he thought you left the winery, and him, for good. But it seems that it wasn’t the case. After all, your belongings were still in their places around the house.

He thanked Adelinde and went to change from his nightwear. After he was done, he looked at his nightstand. Your letter was on it, because he read it at least 10 times more before he went to sleep.

Diluc knew that he can’t just simply buy an expensive gift to apologize, you weren’t that type of person, so instead an idea came to his mind. What if he writes you a letter as well? And so, he went into his office, took out his quill, ink, and some paper and started writing.

…

“Miss [name], welcome home!” saluted Hillie and Moco as you entered the winery.

“Hi girls! The outside of the manor looks great. Thank you for your hard work today!” You said as you were heading for the stairs. Even thought you like walking around, it was quite exhausting to go to and to return from the city by foot. You wanted nothing more than to take a shower and go to sleep.

“Miss [name], wait a moment!” Moco came after you.

“Yes? ”

“Master Diluc was searching for you this afternoon. I think he is in his office right now. He seemed to have something urgent to tell you, at least that’s what we heard from Adelinde.”

’Something urgent, huh?’ You thought. ’The last thing he should say to me is that we should break up, and then he would have said all there is to say, but I should not think like that. Even if I am upset, I certainly don’t want anything like that happening.’

“Thank you for telling me.” You told the girl as you changed your direction from upstairs to Diluc’s office.

…

[ Knock knock]

“Come in.”

You slowly entered the room. Diluc didn’t notice you as he looked absorbed in the document he was reading.

“I heard you were looking for me.”

Diluc looked up while you were staring at him blankly. You two sat in silence for a bit.

It was becoming suffocating.

Why was he silently staring at you? Is he expecting YOU to apologize for the things that HE said?

“If I am being wrong, and you were not looking for me, then I am sorry for interupting your work.” You told him as you were about to turn and leave the room.

“[Name] , wait! ” he pleaded right before getting up from his seat and coming near you. Diluc gently took your hand in his. “I-..uh.. I wrote you a letter.” You looked at him with confusion. “And I want to read it for you.” He continued, as he gestured to the couch in the middle of the room. You nodded and started walking towards it with Diluc trailing behind you. Before sitting, he approached his desk to pick up the “document” he was reading when you came in. He was still holding your hand. He didn’t let go. Almost like…he was afraid to let go of it.

“Here I go” he said swallowing hard.

“Dear [name],

I have a lot of things to tell you, and because I am afraid I will forget them, I wrote them down and I am going to read them to you right now.

1. I want to wish you a happy 6th month anniversary. Words can’t express how sorry I am that I forgot it was yesterday. But I tend to believe that, after you hear my explanation for it, you will understand why I forgot in the first place. Since we started going out 6 months ago, you’ve made me so happy that I feel like celebrating our relationship everyday. Even if I don’t always express how happy I am to be together with you, that’s what I feel like. It’s up to you, if you want to believe me or not.

2. You shouldn’t thank me for choosing you. It’s quite the opposite, acually. You think I don’t notice the guys from Mondstadt, looking at you while we go for walks around the city? Don’t even get me started on the Knights that come to the tavern, some of them that I caught staring at you a few times while you happened to be there as well. There are a lot of guys who can spend more time with you or give you more affection than I do, and considering all that, you still chose me. And I will be forever grateful for that.

Since you told me in your letter about little trinkets you got from me, I think it’s only fair that I should mention I also kept those I recieved from you. Remember what we used to do, when we first met? We used to write random things to each other, on tissues from the tavern, and pass them back and forth, while I was busy, serving the customers. I even kept those that I would say I threw away since they broke because we kept pushing the quill into them too much. I put them in a box, in the first drawer of my desk. I was afraid that, if I put them into the nightstand in the bedroom, you would find them. Even thought, I see how stupid that sounds as I am writing this. My point is, you’re not the only one who holds dear all of these stuff, I do too.

3. I am the one that should apologize and be sorry for a lot of things. I’ll start with one of the biggest, if not already the biggest stupid mistake I have ever done. That being, accusing you of cheating on me. To be honest, I always knew that it wasn’t the case. I always knew, you would never do something like that. The truth is…I have been scared. Scared that you finally realised that I am no good and that you were about to leave me. A part of me even though you would be better off with someone else. Someone who would treat you the way you deserve to be treated.

I am sorry for saying such mean things to you, my love. I never meant to hurt you. I am also sorry because I don’t spend that much time with you, that I don’t give you all the love you deserve and that I don’t tell you that often, how much I love you. I am sorry for all of the things I should do but I don’t .

And last but not least, the 4th thing.

I love you. And not just as simple as that. I love you so much that sometimes, when I look at you, my heart is about to burst. If one morning you say "I love you” to me before I leave home, I will think about it almost until I come back home in the evening. You are always on my mind. And as soon as I leave home, I can’t wait to come back and embrace you into a hug.

I really mean it. All of it. I love you, [name]. I promise, from the bottom of my heart, that I will try my hardest to become a man worthy of your love.

Yours forever, Diluc. “

Diluc took his eyes off the piece of paper as he heard a sob coming from you.

"You are wrong.” you whispered as tears started to fall on your cheeks.

“What?” Diluc didn’t hear you that well.

“ I said that you are wrong.” You complained and started staring right into Diluc’s red eyes.“You think I don’t see it? Every hand squeeze you give me while we are walking around, every hug from behind you give me while I cook dinner. And don’t think I don’t know about those early morning kisses, on my forehead. Those little kisses are the thing I look forward the most, in the morning, well, that, and seeing you being by my side. I see it all the time. You might not tell me directly that you love me, but you show me in so many ways, I would be blind if I didn’t notice. And about the thing from yesterday…I know you didn’t mean it, I truly do, and I forgive you. So let’s forget what happened yesterday. Okay?”

Diluc let the letter fall from his hand. He bended closer to wipe your tears. You leaned into his touch.

“Okay.” He accepted with a little smile.

You both leaned in and kissed. A kiss that felt so honest and perfect, reminding you of your first kiss with Diluc, on a starry night, on the tavern’s balcony, 6 months ago.

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A/N : ¹ = With Wind Comes Glory is the name of the souvenir shop that belongs to Marjorie in Mondstadt.

I hoped you liked it!