Hey y'all! So this is my second headcannon. I may make this a part 2 if the moment strikes or I have some ideas. But I hope you enjoy.

First Night (pt.1?)

It was a cloudy night as you sat on the large bed while looking out the window. The silence of the room was quiet, but not uncomfortable. It was also warm and peaceful; an orange tint bounced of the walls that were created from the fire. You were nervous. It was you first time making love with Alcina. As you stared around the room your poor stomach was in knots. What if you vomited, or fainted? You’d be so embarrassed. As much as you wanted to run away, you couldn’t. You pulled the sheets around you trying to steady your nerves. The deep breath you took was so shaky and loud that you could’ve sworn everyone in the castle heard it, but you wanted this moment to happen and waited for it for a long time. When you first started working at the castle, all you wanted to do was work long enough just to save up enough money to leave the village. Falling in love was the last thing you needed. At first you thought love was just a set back to your goals, but you soon found out the lady of the house felt the same way. There’d be times in the beginning when you’d catch her looking at you when she thought she was being subtle about it, wondering what was reeling through your mind when you saw her. It made you uncomfortable at first. As time went on you eventually started noticing her as well. Her pale skin with a tint of gray underneath, her beautiful full, red lips, her gray-green eyes, everything about her was ethereal. To know she wanted you, a chubby, insecure girl with glasses was almost shocking. You’ve always remained in the background, minding your business and doing your chores, trying not get in trouble so you won’t get sent to the dungeons. You were flattered. “She clearly, must’ve seen something in me that I didn’t and still don’t see,” you said to yourself.

“And so I do.”

You jumped as your breath hitched in your throat. For someone as enormous as her she was awfully quiet. You stared at her wondering if she was real or not. Alcina emerged from the bathroom wearing a dark purple robe with a very prominent low cut center. She smelled of fresh gardenias and her raven hair was out of her famous bun and down to her shoulders. She looked like an angel.

“You look…divine, Alcina!”

She smiled as she walked over to her vanity to pour herself a glass of wine. “Thank you, pet! Not half as divine as you. You look so pretty in that pink negligee. You know, you should really wear more clothes that inhance those soft, sweet curves of yours,” she said as she took a swig of wine. She turned her eyes at you. There was a hint of love in those eyes along with something else. They darkened as she looked you up and down. You sometimes forget she is predatory by nature. What she wants, she gets. Tonight, she gets you.

“Um, I’ll try. I look in a few catalogs tomorrow. Whatever looks right I’ll show you.”

“Wonderful! What’s on your mind, dear? I can see the gears rotating in that cute head of yours.” Alcina moved over to the bed and sat on the edge. “Are you nervous, draga?”

“More than you ever know. I’ve never been with someone before. Sure I’ve had…moments with myself, but even those were awkward,” you sighed. You scooted down on the bed to lay back on your pillow, looking up at the ceiling. “Sure I felt good for a second, but I never finished. I’ve been close though, even though I wasn’t sure what I was doing was right.” You turned over on your side embarrassed.

Alcina chuckled as she stroked your leg. “Draga, there isn’t only a singular way to pleasure yourself. If what you did felt good, then continue doing it. As for finishing, sometimes an orgasm shouldn’t always be the end goal. If it is then that’s perfectly fine. However, the more you focus on it, the harder it’ll be to get there. The best feeling is to let matters flow naturally. Do you understand?”

You turned to look at her. That was easy for her to say as she was more experienced. Over decades of practice and maybe even more to come. Your time was limited.

“I know, Alci, but I….” Anxiety was getting to you, but you mustered up the courage to continue. “I just wanted to know what it would feel like. For so long I was convinced that I wouldn’t meet anyone, and so I thought that the only way to make me feel better about…potentially being single for the rest of my life was to try to achieve orgasm, and when I didn’t get there I’d be frustrated. Like I said, I felt good, but incomplete. Now that I’ve met you, I really wished I could’ve had one. At least I would’ve entered in this relationship having a inkling on what to do.” Tears spilled from your eyes. Alcina grab her handkerchief from her robe pocket and wiped your face as she positioned herself along the headboard. She pulled you into her lap cuddling you until you calmed down. She hated to see you cry. To her sex was a simple, easy thing to pick up. But she had to remember that this was your first time. You told her at the beginning that you wanted their first time to be meaningful. Alcina hummed and thought back to her first time. It was awful! The lack of communication made her feel jaded, the belittling her husband did to her made her feel dirty. Nothing was consensual at all. She kissed the top of your head.

“This is stupid, Alci! You probably think I’m a mess right now. I’ve often been told that nobody wants to be with virgins. We’re too this, too that, too emotional. I could go on forever….”

“Don’t, love. I know how you’re feeling. My first time wasn’t like this. I was told the same thing by husband and he took matters into his own hands. But you? I’ll never do to you what he did to me; made me feel, small, useless, unimportant, unworthy, and an idiot for not knowing what I was doing. A nuisance, I was to him. And he made that known. If I didn’t know what I was doing, he was going to find someone else who did. It hurt! A partner is supposed to teach and help you. Your feelings are heard and so valid. Those people that told you all that nonsense remind me of that horrid man. Of course they’re having sex, but do you know if they are truly happy?” You looked up at her. You didn’t know. People always talked about how much they were getting, but you didn’t know their struggles aside from bedding each other. What if their relationship was one sided? What if it was fulfillment for one and meaningless for the other? Comparison is the thief of joy you always heard.

“Sex doesn’t always equate to happiness, love. It’s better to be alone than to jump from one relationship to another wondering if what you feel is happiness or emptiness. Sometimes sex is used as a coping method, a random stop along this road called life with no real feeling involved. For some, it may not bother them at all and they continue where they left off. For others, it can make them feel drained and tired, and then that emptiness and depression comes creeping back again. I’m not judging you for waiting, so please don’t feel bad. I wouldn’t have judged you if you didn’t. You would’ve had experience, but even then boundaries would still need to be set just like now.”

Your grip around Alcina tightened. You felt as though a weight has lifted off your shoulders. You have no idea how she has so much patience, but your glad she does. “Thank you, Alci! I guess that makes me feel a little better. I was wondering if, maybe not tonight, but soon, could we…”

“Of course darling! Whatever you want.” She smiled and gave you soft kiss. “However, sweetie, when the time comes, you’ll find I can be a most wonderful teacher.” Her grip tightened on your bottom and a rush of electricity sent shivers down your body. Alcina chuckled, “We’ll have to practice everyday, draga.” She gave you a sly wink.

“Well, then professor, I’m can’t wait to start our lessons. I want to know EVERYTHING!” You giggled and gave her another playful kiss. You were so lucky to have someone so caring and understanding as Alcina. You know your first time will be magical when it eventually comes.