I have placed all of my love into my own hands and asked the heavens to send me something beautiful I have asked myself

I have placed all of my love into my own hands and asked the heavens to send me something beautiful

I have asked myself where I’ve gone wrong in all of my failings and I know that I’m not perfect, but for all of the wishing that I’ve done, to improve you must change and to change you must break out of who you have let yourself become

I have placed myself into a glass bottle and shipped it out into the open sea, for all of my glass castles and glass contained heart— I have broken myself into shards and wrote my name into my shoulders for lack of a better way to feel your pain as I’ve made you cry I can only let the scars heal over and feel you once more I know that these apologies don’t mean anything unless I mean it, so if it’s of any reprieve for myself, I forgive you and I forgive myself because until I do, I cannot move forward

I have locked myself inside of poetry and lost myself inside of love, but for what it is worth I am whole once more and nothing I can ever do will change that. There are stars and there are constellations, there is the sun and then there’s you—

I cannot leave this place until I’ve left everything in this life, so if I have anything left unsaid, know that somewhere I’ll be sending my words to you, and if that is not enough, my next life will be formed inside of ideas and I’ll find you to know that I mean well—

It’s getting cold again, but I cannot be your warmth. If energy is real and energy is felt, I can only hope that your jackets and blankets are more than enough to keep you safe. There is a silent place inside all of us, but if we listen with intent, all of our truths can become less about whispering them and more about shouting them into acceptance. That’s just where I’m at and I will never be going back

for what it is worth, you are loved into infinity even if i’m not there, at least you made it home into a place of your own where starshine and stardust are just parts of your starlight