to my youth.

to my youth. At some point, I used to wish I would disappear from this world

The whole world seemed so dark and I cried every night

Will I feel better if I just disappeared?

I was so afraid of everyone’s eyes on me



During those beautifully beautiful days, I was in pain

I hated myself for not being able to receive love

My mom and my dad, they’re only looking at me

It’s not how I really feel but I keep getting farther away



What should I do?



The saying time is medicine was really true for me

As the days went by, I really got better

But sometimes, when I’m too happy, I’m afraid I’ll be in pain again

I’m afraid that someone will take away this happiness



Those beautifully beautiful memories were so painful

I was hurting and hurting but the pain wouldn’t go away

My friends, all these people, they’re only looking at me

This isn’t how I really am but I keep getting farther away



But still, maybe I can be

A bright light in this world

Maybe after all of that pain

I can shortly shine a light

So I couldn’t give up

I couldn’t fall asleep peacefully for a single night

Because maybe if I keep trying to get up like this

I will find myself



How painful must it have been?

How painful must it have been?

How high must my hopes have been?